Today, I looked up from my fifth consecutive loss in Hearthstone and I thought to myself, “I need to move around more. I sit down far too much.” So I got up and went to the Rec Hall, which has some workout equipment next to the basketball court, and walked on the elliptical machine for 20 minutes. Not a huge amount, to be sure, but since I haven’t worked out in any meaningful way since last October, it was a good start.
Then I came right back to my room and played WOW. But hey, Progress!
I realize I’ve been away for a while. Well, I haven’t posted. I’ve been reading people’s posts, even found a few new blogs to follow, but I haven’t been successful in writing anything for about a month. Part of it was the depression, sure, and part of it was being so busy at work, but a lot of it was just that I didn’t have anything to say. My dad described it pretty well when we were talking earlier. He said, “Kid, you and me both, we’ve spent our lives playing catchup; putting out fires as they come up, and never really had a plan. Look at me: I’m 74 years old, and still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.”
That’s all I’ve been doing lately. Playing catch up. I’m not really living. I don’t have any goals beyond “Make it through work each day” and “Brush my teeth before bedtime.” So It’s time I made some.
Short Term Goals:
I am going to post at least once a week. Something, even if it’s just a photo and a few words. Just so there is proof that I’m alive.
I am going to the Rec Hall and walk on the elliptical at least 20 minutes a day. (bonus fitness goal: check out the Yoga class on Tuesdays!)
I am going to use the Rosetta Stone Program my Dad bought me and Learn French.
I am going to get my driver’s license by the end of the year.
I am going to do some research on careers that interest me, see what it would take to change tracks. I like my job, but it isn’t what I planned to do. I never planned to be here. I am here, in a very real way, because i never planned anything. And even if I stay; I want it to be because I want to, not because I don’t have anything better to do.
I am going to Live.